Ghost 'n' Clouds

What depression feels like and does to you.

Waiting here on the side

I’m waiting for you to see

Do you see me?

Do you hear me?

Is it alright if I cry?

Is it okay to be upset?

Why do I have to be what you want me to be?

Why can’t I just be free to express myself?

My heart is weeping 

All I want is to be seen

I’m a ghost wandering among the clouds

I scream so loud but the wind catches it

Spin my wheels and break my face just to be heard

I’m craving the light to fill me

Even though I love you

I am empty...

Its not you love

All this pain and suffering

I can’t hold it in anymore

I’m silently weeping alone

I’ve got a fatal wound

I’m bleeding out

I’m writhing in agony 

But no lifeline is to be found

Waiting here on the edge

I’m waiting to see if I fall

Do you notice me?

Do you listen at all?

Is it okay if I jump?

Is it okay if I give up?

Why do I have to be something I can’t be?

Why can’t I just be who I am?

My smile is fading

All I want is to be known

I’m a ghost wandering among the clouds

I scream so loud but the wind catches it

Spin my wheels and break my back to be heard

I’m craving the cure to fix me

Even though I love you

I am despairing...

Its not you love 

All this pain and suffering

I can’t hold it in anymore

I’m silently dying alone

I’ve lost an limb

I’m screaming 

I’m losing something now

But no one is here to help

Waiting here on the edge

I’m waiting to see if theres hope

Did you realize I’m suffering?

Do see the scars there?

Is it okay if I fade away?

Is it okay if I just give in?

Why can’t I have you listen?

Why can’t I just be understood?

My brain is messed up

All I want is some comfort

I’m a ghost wandering among the clouds

I scream so loud but the wind chokes it

Spin my wheels and break my neck 

I’m craving the comfort that I need

Even though I love you

I am suffering...

Its not you love

All this sorrow and misery

I can’t do this alone

I’m silently choking

Its funny how people listen when your gone

Its funny how people say they are here when their not

Its funny how people who say they care fail you 

Its funny how in times of need theres nobody

It shouldn’t have to get to this to be acknowledged

It shouldn’t be that worth is determined by how good you are doing

It shouldn’t be how the physical pain gets out what is inside

It shouldn’t stand that there is no relief