I Remember!

About feeling young and lost and found.

I remember feeling young, so young it feels like yesterday, when I would feel so lost that lost was home and a place where no-one could ever find me, ever, never.

I remember feeling so alien the Martians felt like family, for surely I was not meant to be here, in this place that seemed so very wrong and sometimes it still does.

I remember asking other boys: Why do you hurt me? What have I ever done to you? And they themselves, they did not know the answer, but continued anyway.

I remember loving with a desperation that went so deep the earth would surely shatter, if it mattered, but I guess it did not, for it, it is still whole and in one piece.

I remember hating both my parents for having dared to put me on this clump of rock, where the mere fact of being hurt so much it made me bleed, from unseen wounds.

I remember every single brick of that shaky wall I finally built for myself to ward off any and all evil, to protect and keep me out of harms way, perhaps until this day.

But most of all I remember dreaming, ever dreaming of a world where love would reign and everyone would be my friend or lover, no need for wall or cover there.

And thankfully I do remember finding my first soul-mate to share this private world of mine and then of ours with and being born anew, a member of a kinder race.

Reviews

[Reginald Van Langenhove]

Thank you both for the praise. Hugs from Reggie.

[Earthstains]

I love that you remembered here that most tender and beautiful vulnerability that abides at the seat of your very soul. You belong here on this clump of rock, to teach, to create, to bring joy and sensitivity.

[Devesh]

This was a very lovely read! I'm stil quite young, so I can't say that I could relate to many of your ideas but your words captured the emotions beautifully, and they were good enough to make me understand where you're coming from. Great job! :)