Hate me

How i felt today

Have you ever looked in the mirror
and hated what you saw?
wanting to be better.. but still knowing you won’t improve
because you're damaged and your mind won’t allow you to think of yourself
as beautiful.
you're always ugly.. always fat.. always unwanted.
have you ever broken down into tears
because you hate yourself?
You've made errors yes,
which is human,
but you cannot accept yourself anymore.
you've become a failure.
no one wants you...
why do i try?
try to succeed in finding happiness..
when i know it'll never come to someone like me.
someone unworthy. unwanted. unneeded. unbeautiful.
i feel...
I feel fat, stupid, ugly.
I don’t wanna be me!
can’t you see this??
I DON’T WANNA BE ME!
I hate me...
I can’t be what you ideal daughter is and i'm not forgiven for that.
Don’t tell me sweet lies. I don’t believe them anymore.
I know you don't want me.
Don't tell me you do.
I guess i'll leave then. leave you to your happiness.
sorry to bother...

Author's Note

sorry im not a very good writer...

Reviews

[Jules Carson]

A very captivating read. You know how to change people's emotions and show them how you are feeling, and thrusting it upon them. I'm sure this speaks better to people that have suffered depression, who can relate. Yet still coming from someone who hasn't, you are still able to make me feel the raw emotion that compelled you to write this. Keep it up, I'm looking forward to more.

[Grace Mohn]

well thank you very much and i try to move poeple with my wrieting :)

[Androglossia]

The poem shows a lot of emotions. Your style is very captivating and you have the skill to convey emotions into the hearts of the readers. Well done. Don't worry hun, everyone goes through the same phase. You'll get through it:) Keep the faith. Keep writing!

[Grace Mohn]

thank you soo much for you feed back :) you are very kind

[SJ]

Wow...that's the first word that pops into my head. The rawness, strength and pure intensity of your words and emotions are just mind bogglingly amazing. You're right, you're not a 'very good writer' you're just an AMAZING writer! :)

[Grace Mohn]

Oh! Thank you soo much! you just made my night! :) very very kind of you

[demureminds]

A piece that really made me feel your raw emotions and I hope things get better for you really. And you ARE a good writer. This poem seems very free verse to me, which in my opinion are the best kinds because they have no filters and everything you want to say is put into it. Keep writing! (:

[Grace Mohn]

I have depression and it hits hard sometimes... but usually im fun.. sorta haha. but thank you very very much! I love writing :)