My Crystalline Belladonna

For Crystal

Gasping, praying, trembling
I search for the light,
the fire of daytime
with promise to be alright.

Alone, my heart races,
breaking straight through.
Once again my thoughts belong
each only to you.

My beautiful, shining star,
what has happened to you?
Your eyes have turned to darkness
no longer alive and true.

But, what more could I ask
when your tongue traced my lips?
The stars fell form the sky
and the sun gave to eclipse.

I cannot live without your words
although broken and betrayed.
I wonder the future
if I only had stayed.

Your love could never kill me
until this dark night.
And somehow, from the ashes
I fear, that is alright.

Through my endless apologies
I meet your hate-ridden eyes.
As my love for you is promised
you still fail to realize.

I plead you not speak
Oh, my angel of past.
I plead you not to run
as I cannot run so fast.

You ask of only my absence
and somehow you must know,
I cannot hold much longer;
but you wish me to let go.

Insanity creeps through
as I'm lost and confused.
Whether awakened or dreaming
it's a life without you.