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A true story.

I stop and I stare and all I think about is what I could of had.

She stops and stares and looks into my eyes thinking what we could of been.

We could of spoken up, but we chose not to.

What would society think?

What would our families think?

I don’t know how to speak about it.

Speak about what?

How can I say it?

Do I start off with I'm not who you think I am.

No society wouldn't like that.

I tell myself before I sleep it will get better.

But when I face reality it gets worse.

I feel my life sentence shortening.

I'm living in a prison and I can’t escape.

I try and I try.

How can I gain strength.

What have I done to gain god’s trust?

Other than become a monster.

I can’t face how they would look at me.

How could anyone?

Im unsteady.

Desperate

Not ready for the real world.

I’m alone.

I’m in my own utopian world.

I can’t escape this.

Shes ill.

What can I do?

How can I help?

Sister I need you to be okay

Tell me your okay.

Your making mum ill.

She’s not well

She’s not herself.

All you do is sleep,sleep,sleep.

All she does is sleep,sleep,sleep.

All I do is try,try,try.

The devil has more connection to me than I have to myself.

Someone reach out.

Anyone

Please

Someone make me feel safe.

Make me feel that I’m welcome.

All I think is about that day.

When you told me you were in trouble.

I wanted to be there.

I wanted to help.

Make you feel you were safe.

And I didn’t.

It’s all my fault.

Im selfish.

Please let me help you.

He took you from me.

And I’m the one who is hurt.

I think about that day.

When you told me.

What you didn’t know…

It was my fault.

I should of been there.

I should of saved you.

It’s not your fault sister.

I miss the way we were sisters.

I miss the way we were a family.

I miss the way we were humans.

After all of this.

I miss the way I loved her.

I miss the way I smiled when she spoke.

She took my heart.

She stole it.

But you stole her from me.

Now all you do is sleep,sleep,sleep.

All mum does is sleep,sleep,sleep.

And now all I do is sleep,sleep,sleep.

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Reviews

[Rye]

a lot of sleeping go on in the end. Seriously I enjoyed your write, it is very well written. Sad write but nicely done