3 Minds

My arm hurts
My mindfulness hurts
I took into consideration all the nonjudgmental factors
And I also compared and thought to myself
If I take action, while others do not
How does that simplify the end?
I am attempting wise mind
Even though I, emotion, can hardly ever
Be reasonable
Observe and describe
This is exactly what happened
And that is how it makes me feel
I forgot about it, but not really
In all honesty I just blanked
My mind just stopped for those mere seconds, minutes, hours
And here I am once again
To deal with the shame and guilt on a scale of ten to ten
Y/N, Y/N, Y/Y, N/N
Where am I when I think of you?
On another plain, completely just the same
As when I'm blissfully surrendered
But here I am not
Here I am something else
Something else consumed by other emotion minds
Where reason mind is smothered into a small
Incomprehensible flickering ash-filled lump
Yes, I am getting better
And yes, I am not
So what is this?
If I am neither one nor the other
I am the inbetween
And
I
Will
Not
Be
Stopped