Be Proud of Me

Explosions in my brain
Dripping from my heart
Converging into pain
Without an end or start
This heat is rising up
Ongoing far and far
The flame it just won’t stop
Until my body’s charred
So I can relish in
My pink fleshy burns
Don’t tell me it’s a sin
Don’t give me false concern
I know how you feel
When all is said and done
You’d tell me just to deal
And help me load my gun
You’d load it with flowers
And sweet caressing scents
And in my darkest hours
I can make my sweet ascent
Into blue fiery clouds
That force me to drown        
Mama, aren’t you proud?
I really let you down