Good Or Bad?

Is this a good quality
Or a bad one?
It’s gotten easier
With practice, time and effort
Is this a good feeling
Or a bad one?
Three weeks have gone by
And I haven’t touched the stuff
Almost a month
And a month has gone by
Are you correlated
To my sick mini-high?
It’s all coming down
With crashing relief
Headaches, tension
And the bruises to show
Is the corrosive attitude
So easy to stop?
Or am I stuck forever
In a perilous plot
Against my health and all my notions
To confine my thoughts
And control my motions
Soon I’ll be thrown
Into tumble and dry
So I can carve out
My acidic lies
Under the sweet goopy mix
Is the sour, bitter end
Of a days-worth of hate
Force-fed to me not a moment too late
Or too soon, as a matter of fact
I’ll believe you some day
But not in December
The time is approaching and I’ll have three
To “celebrate”
One that is good
And two that are bad