Any Given Moment

My heart beats vigorously and intensely
As I think of how my life could be ripped away from me
At any given moment
What have I done?
What have I accomplished?
Nothing worth mentioning, or remembering
In these last stages of life
Fear, anger, love, hatred, and grievance
All occur simultaneously
Flowing rapidly and more dangerously
Than the white caps of a raging river
This adventure is like white water rafting
The adrenaline pumps through my veins
And it could end unexpectedly, with morose results
At any given moment
Who have I helped?
Who have I supported?
No one but myself, which is lowly and self-centered
I try to move on from the
Fear, anger, love, hatred, and grievance
But it gets so tumultuous
In my mind tumbling around hectically
I wish I could have made more of a difference
And I wish I could have loved you better
No tears, please
Just expect that I could leave
At any give moment