This is Reality

I hurt everyone
So why shouldn’t I hurt myself?
I hide everything
So why shouldn’t I hide this?
 I want you to know
But I can’t find the words
 Only actions
Which add to the monstrosity that is me
This shell is breaking
 I am bothersome, weak
I wish you would hate me
Or at least see
See what I am
What the devil has created me to be
 Once God’s perfection
Now a vile, disgusting thing
Don’t help me up
I don’t deserve it
 I’m not worth it
If you only knew
How sick, twisted, raging, putrid, filthy
I really am