I Want to Sleep Forever

Happy when I’m sleeping
Fearful when I’m not
I live this, hopeless everyday
The only lie I’ve got
Keep it close to my heart
Or black hole I have instead
Aim the bullet somewhere else
Maybe at my head
Scream louder into empty air
While falling oh-so-fast
I knew I could never feel this way
Happiness will never last
 

Author's Note

you might notice a repeating line from another poem. i assume i was thinking about it quite a bit when i was writing these poems.