Ever Think

Ever think
    I dress the way I do
    Not because you think it is cool
        But to keep you away
        Why are you not terrified?
Ever think
    I say the things I say
    Not because they are true
        But to keep you away
        Why are you still here?
Ever think
    I act the way I do
    Not for the attention
        But to keep you away
        Why do you still like me?
Ever think
    I say I don’t believe
    Not for you to prove me wrong
        But to keep you away
        Why do you still bother?
Ever think
    I’m a contradiction
    Not because I enjoy hurting you
        But because I don’t want to
        Why am I not satisfied?

 

Author's Note

i am a million contradictions all wrapped up into one.