I don't follow others footprints!!

It is funny that this topic is about racism, as 24 hours ago I was victimized for being racist. When I’m not, this offended me and brought me to tears because of so much hate a certain person can throw at you because of something that happened in the past. I couldn’t understand why certain black people victimized those who didn’t follow in those foot prints. I’m happily engaged to a black man, I have black friends. I have a black daughter and a white son. That makes me racist?

I felt angry but at the same time sad for this person accusing me, as they were brought up to believe that is how it should be. I’m not proud of how that time in history treated black people, and is hard to forgive for whatever happened. If I was born in that time line I would be fighting with them not against them. I’d be fighting for them as people as human beings, skin is something we are born with and no one can change that. I know everyone has their views, opinions and I respect those who wish to believe that white should be with white and black should be black. That is them and not me; I treat everyone equal and worry about what inside that person.

Today, some places in the world still live in the past. I can’t change that, you can’t change that, and we can’t change that. Some people are too strong minded in there beliefs that they are blinded by what has change and not everyone hate black people. To be honest I admire them, they are awesome dancers, which happens to be right up my street. Their confidence in themselves is inspirational.

So why should I hate them? Why twist my words when I say I’m not racist. Were human beings that should stand together but I guess were barely touching fingers, because of what can’t be undone. I’ am still angry and hurt, only because I don’t want this much hate towards people. I’m not angry at that person I’ am angry because of that anguish they threw at me. I wasn’t trying to change that’s person view but partly stick up for me and why I could never hate black people regardless the gender, beliefs and back grounds. I just generally care, and I cared about that person too. We hardly knew each other despite the mount of stuff they threw at me. I still wouldn’t hate them, because they are simply a human being. No different to you and I. I’m not racist, I’ am ME!  

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[James D. Sanderson]

It doesn't sound like you have anything to defend yourself about. You obviously have strong emotions going for you here and you convey them very well. When I am conveying emotion, I tend to use shorter, punchier sentences: "I was accused of being a racist! Me! A woman engaged to a black man. Me! A woman who has both a black daughter and a white son. Me! A woman who has many black friends." And so on. Let that anger out my friend. Keep up the good work. Jim