What I'd do to be beautiful...

It all started

from the moment I went to school

everyone would bully me

shouting, kicking...

"You stupid fool!"

I never felt wanted 

I never felt beautiful

I would sobbed on my own

far out on the school felid...

One rainy day

I sat in my class

alone as normal

away from those horrid glances...

A boy came up to me

snatching the pen from my hand

"Why are you ugly?" He said

As I hunch further into my chair...

I chose not to listen

I did not want to care

But it was impossible

am i really that ugly?..

I went home

to my bedroom

stood, stared 

long and hard at my reflection...

Why are you ugly?

echoed in my mind

I don't know, I don't know

was all i could say...

I sobbed even harder

wrecking anything i could see

then i saw a photo

in a magazine...

A face so dazzling

so flawless

I wanted be that

in hope it gets rid of this...

This ugly face 

I no longer want to be

I cut out her eyes

and place her over my face...

I did not feel any better

because it was not me

I could have it 

but a price...

hundreds, thousands

maybe even millions

I'm willing to go through it

if i no longer have to stare at flaws...

"Then that's what I'd do to be beautiful"

Author's Note

Ok it's not great, but i wrote it anyway...

Reviews

[Timtim]

It's a great piece, let us be the judge of the work... Really sad though, expressed in the strong choice of words.

[Emily B]

throw the magazine photo away, stupid boy anyway, you are beautiful

[Gone]

This poem made me angry and sad. Angry on your behalf and sad that you believed the lie.

Your writing shows inner beauty and strength (the type that only rejection can bring out). If that is you on your profile picture then the boy who told you that you were ugly was either lying or had bad taste!

You are not ugly. You are a princess, beautiful and strong. A worthy partner for the the valliant prince you will oneday meet. You will fight by his side and achieve your common purpose together. Of this I am sure. I see it in your eyes.

[OT]

it is great!! such a strong heartfelt topic which you give life to with ease! very sad and controversial topic that so many are faced with, you have a nice subtle rhyme rippling through it, with a good pace! and it's simplicity is the winner - a straight story - told directly and not lost in forced rhymes! nice!!

[Jolleen Camacho]

I enjoyed it...although everyone is beautiful in there own amazing ways. People who judged you are just jealous of the fire of beauty within you. They judge on others to make themselves feel good. Your write was great..you expressed yourself..i enjoyed it..remember your BEAUTIFUL IN YOUR OWN WAY AND LET NO ONE TELL YOU OTHER WISE.!!@!

[KAREN]

Very sad, and you wrote on a subject that many young girls face today, very heart felt!

[cfix]

This is sad but so well expressed.