You helped me remember

I've stood still in the same place for so long

I've forgotten there's a whole world out there

That I can explore without you

Even though it makes my walks 10 times longer

And my steps 100 times harder

I know this will be the best thing for me

I was so invested, In six feet

Standing in a pit with water slowly rising

One more drop of rain was a flood to me

I'm so tired of hurting but the nights are the worst

That's when my stomach turns and your words repeat themselves as if the first time I heard them they didn't hurt enough

“I'm sorry, it wasn't meant to be this way”

I know, I never imaged this happening

Though I knew it was inevitable

I didn't want to end it

We could of fixed it

It was a piece of oak wood

I thought we could bend it

It shattered on me and left me with splinters

In my chest where I felt you

In my eyes where I saw you

In my hands where I touched you

Now I'm having a hard time feeling the happy

Now I'm having a hard time seeing the good

Now I'm having a hard time feeling the soft

I don't even smile when I think of the past us

Because it just reminds me of things I've lost

Hearing you cry killed me

Handling myself crying almost killed me

We're you worth it?

I needed you

I needed you

I needed no one else but you

But by telling myself only you could help

I forgot the power I have inside myself to heal my own wounds

The power to stitch my own scars

The power to think my own thoughts

The power to control my own feelings

The power to forget my own memories

The power to move on

I have that strength

You taught me that

You made me learn its okay to lose what you love

Because if it loves me back

It'll find it's way to me