What I Want

I wish I could write a good poem again
All my tries are s**t
My rhymes are forced
And I always get off course
I used to be good
A lot of things happened
I got detached from writing
And that's not all
I went through a lot of changes
Friends left
Not many came back
No new ones at all
I've changed
I know this
I used to be the swell guy
Everybody talked to me
Because of what I did
They now hate me
And the ones that don't
Never talk to me
So I sit a boring life
Its always raining
I'm always thinking
About what I've done
And in that time
I have grown to know
That I regret so much
And I have more life to go
I don't know when it all turned around
But one did try to help me
And there's another regret
I hurt the closest
And I want them to stay
But I push them away
And now I do think
I should stop this nonsense
What I want is another chance
Not just one but at life
Because I've made mistakes
And what did I learn
I'm doomed
And I
Will
Burn