Lean On Me, Still - For My Best Friend

To a brave, strong, amazing mum!

I have known you my friend

for some time now.

You have been there to lend

me your ear and your hand.

So why is it now,

in your greatest need

that I can not lead

you through, this time of trial and strife?

As young girls we would laugh

about futures and boys.

We were far too old for little children's toys.

You grew up first, into a woman my friend.

Then I followed suit, losing my most protective companion.

We fought like sisters. And loved like them still.

We have been through so much, in so little a time.

You have stuck by me, and vow till to the end of time.

But why can't I be there for you now?

In your greatest need? Do I love you too much?

Or is it simply. Selfish greed?

I want to be there beside you.

A shoulder for you too lean.

But fear encompasses me...

am I really that mean..?!

I love you as a sister, and your son like my own.

If only we could see, how much we've truly grown!

Your bravery astounds me,

you protectiveness knows no bounds.

You've grown stronger than I, my friend.

Your love for a boy, who is now yet, a man.

I'm joyous for you, beyond words, it is true...

yet a fear of replacement creeps slowly in still.

For he is the best comfort any one could ever you bring.

And maybe one day, produce you a ring...

at that moment my heart will let out a song,

because that kind of love, is never wrong!

Yet my thoughts are a candle, flicking from one to the next...

with a friendship like his, is there a place for me too?

But what hurts the most, is not being able

to stand by your side, as you go to the table.

Or stand by your son as they poke and they prod,

then look at you knowingly, with a reassuring nod.

You are my best friend. You have been for years.

You have stuck by me, through all of MY tears.

So why is it now, in your greatest need,

that I cant help YOU too?

I will tell you why, I will tell you this true.

Its because I am selfish. And can not bear to see

the sorrow that has befallen on you, all three.

The changes that be, happen so suddenly.

I guess, what I'm trying to say...

is that I can't cope with the pain

it's as if I am slain, by the ghost

of fear and blame.

I want to be there. For you to depend.

That hand to you lend, my comfort to send.

Its so stupid, dear friend, that I am now weak.

And now, know not how to speak.

My love and friendship will be with you always.

I will always be there in the doorways.

Pushing fear back, and fronting an attack.

On the selfish sorrow that mourns.

But for now bravest friend,

there WILL be an end,

to this unbearable pain,

that no mother should need bear.

Just have faith, faithful friend!

You know it is there. And honestly,

God really DOES care.

I just want to say. I'm sorry!

By underwriter     22/12/2010

Reviews

[Sarah Jane]

I love the progression of the friends and how the closeness is just felt. I have a best firend that I can kind of relate this too, shes been here through a lot abd I can't seem to be there for her when shes hurt, and I'm not sure why. Wonderful write:) Very emotional

[cfix]

WOW, This write is brave and so wonderful. I really admire your strength. I totally love this write. This is amazing!