Chapter XVI Part IIA Chapter by CalypsoChapter XVI Part II January ran full speed out of the
center and pushed though the protesters out side. It was the coldest day of the year but
January sat in car, without turning it on and cried. She sat her head on the stirring wheel
and sobbed. She couldn’t imagine what emotions her family would feel if they
knew she had walked into an abortion clinic. Celia would have killed her, and
January wouldn’t have blamed her. Sometimes she would like to kill herself. She was barely clam enough to drive
put she flooded the pedal and drove until she came to a church. The church she came upon looked small,
was Catholic and there was only a few cars sitting here or there. The sign in
from of the church as that confessionals were between 8am and 3pm. It was 2:30.
Before setting out of the car she
covered her face with her toboggan and wrapped up part of her face with her
scarf. The lights were on in the church but
the only lights in the sanctuary were fifty candles spread though out. At he end was a statute of Jesus,
gilded and about ten feet tall. January walked between the pews until she came
up to older women some praying, some standing up. They looked like nuns and acted like
them too. One of the women standing up said,
“How may I help you child?” “Is there… confessionals?” The women looked over her glasses and
said, “You mean ‘Are there confessionals?’” Never in her life has January wanted
to slap a nun before but instead she nodded. The nun seemed satisfied enough so she
answered, “Yes. Father Baynerd is doing confessionals today.” She pointed to
two wooden boxes connected together. “Set in there, he’s waiting.” January nervously walked into the claustrophobic box. There was a plank where you sat and on the right side of the box were craving that opened up to the other side of the box. The holes in the cravings were covered with a screen weaved together tightly. January began kneading her knee and spoke, “Bless me Father for I have sinned, this is my first confession since last year.” “What is wrong my child?” The Father
sounded older then his shadow. “I’ve broken all ten commandants.”
January paused to take inventory of her life. She was about to correct herself
by saying that she hasn’t put anything before God, but that would have been a lie. “If that is so child then I believe
you should pray the rosary more and read your Bible more often. How often do
you do both?” January had to think about it. “I
kinda gave up on God after September. So two months.” She thought she heard the man sigh but
he was really preparing an answer. “It may be for the best. Is there anything
else?” “I’m pregnant.” January admitted
without thinking about it. “And I’m not married nor am I in a relationship with
the child’s father.” January felt dizzy and like she had
taken a hit in the gut but she held back the tears. The last thing she wanted
was to walk out of the confessional box with red, puffy eyes. Father Baynerd coughed and spoke after
a pause that made January extra nervous. “Mistake happen child. We often don’t
think about what we do before doing it, yet God isn’t happy. You need to try to
volunteer at the church and say ten extra Hail Marys for the nest month.” “But,” January whispered. “Will I
still burn for my sin, or will I go purgatory after death? This child…is the
product of rape. Its father drugged me and attacked me when I couldn’t fight
back.” January could hardly believe she had
admitted this to a stranger. Good thing she had been raised to go to
confessionals and that the priest couldn’t see her. He answered softly and kindly. “What
you are going though is not your fault but the fault of the devil. God
understands and is with you. Have you said anything to the police or your
family?” “No, I’m afraid.” “Crimes should never go unpunished and
you need closure. Does the father know about your pregnancy?” “No and I also almost aborted the
child.” “What happened? Did you?” “No, I just became afraid. I’m so
scared. I don’t want to kill my child but I don’t want it to be born. I want to
take the father to court but I don’t want to see his face.” “I believe the real solution to your
problems is to come open to the police and your family.” January wanted to whimper but she dug
her nails into the palm of her hand until the urge passed. “Do you think you can do that?” There was a tap on the door. January
looked out and saw the older nun with a woman at her side. January figured
there was a limit to how long the confessional went on and they had surpassed
their limit. This nun must be ballsier then most
nuns January had ever meet. “I believe our time is up and don’t
forget to do what I’ve asked of you.” Before stepping out of the
confessional box January wrapped her face up again in the scarf and after
answered. “I’ll try.” © 2011 CalypsoReviews
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