Chapter XIVA Chapter by CalypsoChapter XIV “What child is this, who lays on
Mary’s lap, is sleeping…” Willow turned the dial down on the radio until the
words died down into a murmur. “I guess this won’t be too bad.”
January said nicely. Willow’s sculpture class had to put up
Christmas trees in the common rooms of the dorms. Only seven from the class had
showed to put up the tree in January’s dorm. A skinny guy had dragged the torn box
across campus and now it barely looked good enough to carry the tree anymore. Another guy had brought the plastic
box with decorations. It was January’s job to draw the tree
after they were done; the sculpture teacher had asked her to. They were all arguing over what to do.
One wanted to place a star on top of the tree while another wanted to put a black
Jesus on top of it. When one girl talked about it she
referred to it as a ‘holiday tree’. Someone else complained that there should
be a menorah the whole time. January was happy Willow just stood
back and put the decorations where she was told. There was almost a fistfight over the
color of the tree skirt. By the time they were done all seven
were sick of each other. Thus they called off putting the last tree up. After the other left Willow sat down
by January. “I hate it when they act stupid like
that.” January began. Willow chewed on her nail and nodded.
“The guys in my class are real cocky.” “All cocky guys go here. I don’t
believe an guy at ABAU isn’t.” January began on her work and Willow
watched. In her childhood Christmas tree sparkled
like diamonds from the lights, the ornaments looked like miniature pieces of
art. The final tree looked magical with a bit of everyone’s personality in it. This tree was placed in front of the
glass planes (the whole right wall is nothing but glass planes). The snow
outside was reflecting the bright sun until you couldn’t look out the window. January still tried to work on it. As
it ended up because of the light she came back at night. At night the commons room was more
full, but the she was able to see the tree better. The moon sat full and wide
behind the black Jesus. She drew the tree but in the drawing
she moved the moon so that it was slightly eclipsed by the tree. All the while people were studying and
carrying on loud conversations. Down the hall people were playing music loudly.
January never heard it thought because
she had her earphones in. Near the end of the drawing she felt a tap on her
shoulder. Before turning around she packed her
color pencils into her pouch. “You’re January, aren’t you?” It was one of Jared’s friends.
Immediately she felt sick to her stomach. The room spun and her mouth grew dry. “Why the hell do you want to know?” He stepped back. “Hay b***h I just
wanted to know where your man is.” “What the… Are you stupid! Who the
hell are you talking about?’ “Jared!” He yelled. His fist was
turning white and January half expected that fist to fly. “I wanna know where
he is.” “Are you stupid? I would be the
devil’s w***e then date Jared! Get the f**k away from me!” January kept on screaming until the DA
showed up. The top-heavy women stepped into the three feet between January and
Jared’s friend. “Stop it, now! I’ll call campus police
if you don’t!” January stared the guy down. She tried
to give him her most nasty look. “Hay, hay she’s just a crazy b***h!” “He just come up to me and started
asking questions…” She started back. She began babbling off random words that
meant nothing at all. The DA stayed between the two until
January paused for a breath. “If you two won’t stop acting like
children I will call the campus police.” January stopped talking and just
breathed. The friend looked red with anger. Xandera showed up with her arm around
a boy’s waist. “What’s happening?” “Go back to your room.” The DA answered
her. There were many people standing around watching but Xandera was the only
one to speak to any of the three. “She’s my roommate.” The DA sighed and January could see
the tension drain from her face. “Take your friend with you.” Xandera let go of the guy and wrapped
her arm around January’s shoulder. “C’mon girl. Let’s go.” The boy followed January and Xandera
to their room. Before closing the door Xandera kissed the boy good-bye and
promised to call him before 10. January sat on her bed and began to
cry. Xandera sat by her and like a mother she placed her arm around her
shoulder. “Tell me what happened.” January knew she could say nothing
about Jared raping her. If he hadn’t done so she doubts she would have reacted
like she did earlier. “He’s Jared’s friend.” “So you broke up?” Xandera asked
carefully. January wanted to say something else
but instead she answered, “We never really dated…” “But it still hurts…?” January wasn’t going to say that, in
fact she wasn’t sure what she was going to follow up that statement with. “You know back last year I was in
love, real love. I gave him my virginity. “ She pointed a finger at her nose.
“He used to kiss my nose and I would laugh at all his stupid jokes.” Xandera
paused again and January wondered if she was about to cry but instead she
continued on by saying “But I just woke up one day and realized he was a loser
and I could do better. I quit talking to Jared. He’s such a pervert. He talks
about his porn all the time and he drinks way too much.” By now January began to cry again. “Aww please don’t cry. Look at me! I’m
dating again and I haven’t thought about my ex in so long…” That didn’t really help but January
bottled up her emotions to make Xandera did a good job of consoling her. January ended up going to bed and just
thinking about her mother. She wondered how Lily would react to her pregnancy.
She wondered if Lily would blame her. Now she is almost at the end of her
first trimester save two weeks. That night, before falling asleep, she
said a prayer to St. Agnes. “O
glorious St. Agnes, you served God in humility and confidence on earth and are
now in the enjoyment of His beatific Vision in heaven because you persevered
till death and gained the crown of eternal life. Remember now the dangers that
surround me in the vale of tears, and intercede for me in my needs and
troubles. Amen.” She
went ahead and prayed to St. while she was at it. “Lord,
our God, you graciously chose St. Dymphna as patroness of those afflicted with
mental and nervous disorders. She is thus an inspiration and a symbol of
charity to the thousands who ask her intercession. Please
grant, Lord, through the prayers of this pure youthful martyr, relief and
consolation to all suffering such trials, and especially those for whom we
pray, such as myself. I beg you, Lord, to hear the prayers of St. Dymphna on my
behalf. Please grant me patience in my sufferings and resignation to your
divine will. Please fill me with hope, and grant me the relief and cure they so
much desire. I ask this through Christ our Lord who suffered agony in the garden. Amen. After
the prayers were said and she cried just a little more she fell asleep and came
upon a full night of nightmares. Once
the dawn came, the sun bright and pure January never felt more dead. She
packed for her day but she was careful put pack everything she would need so
that she wouldn’t have to come back unless she needed to. © 2011 CalypsoReviews
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2 Reviews Added on June 9, 2011 Last Updated on June 9, 2011 Tags: rape, pregnancy, college life, artist AuthorCalypsoWVAboutI'm a full time college student, part time worker. I'm two years away from my bsw! In my free time I read, write and sim. Check out my tumblr blogs some time. http://emmy-1127.tumblr.com/ more..Writing
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