June 25

June 25

I’m writing this entry from a hospital bed. When I woke up yesterday morning I felt funny. Janna asked how I was feeling and I told I felt fine but when I got out of bed I passed out. I rushed to the hospital where they did more test. Apparently I’m still malnourished. So now I’m once again hocked up to an IV pole. Janna checked on me a few times through out the day.

           I don’t understand why I’m here. I haven’t felt so strong in months, but Janna’s convinced that I had purged more then once. I keep telling Janna that I’m telling the truth, but she always responds that she’s just ‘concerned’ as if that will make me tell the truth. I think she’s about to give up.

           Around noon I called Dad to tell him what was going on. He had just left work when I called him. He asked if I wanted him to visit me, but I told him no. I didn’t tell him that I purged again, I didn’t want leave Dad with that little tidbit of information.

          To kill time I’ve been reading the books Dad gave me. Also I have been watching movies, anything to stop myself from thinking about Mom or Morana.

      The anniversary of Mom’s and Morana’s death are coming up. Mom died from cancer when I was eight. Mom’s death still scars me, but the things I saw when Morana died were worse.

          Mom died on July 1 after struggling with breast cancer. On that day Dad, Morana and I were driving to the hospital when Dad received the call on his cell phone. After the call was over Dad just pulled off the road and cried, he didn’t have to say what happened. Morana held her hands tightly against her stomach as her tears started flowing like a river. I believe at some point she had trouble breathing. To be frank I can’t really remember because I was crying loudly myself. I didn’t see much of Morana or Dad after Mom died. We all stayed in our rooms. After Mom’s funeral we ate the food people from the church brought and stayed on our rooms crying, at least I did. I’m crying even now because I’m thinking about it.

         Mom had been dead for only two years when Morana died herself.

Reviews

[PyroKitty24]

Aww how sad. It's always terrible when someone close to you dies, especially your mother at that young an age. Nice cliffhanger at the end~

[Daydreamer54]

hocked-hooked
threw-through. wellat least one muystery is solvednow I WONDER WAT HAPPNED TO HER SISTER. dID SHE COMMIT SUICIDE CUS SHE COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMORE. (HORRIBLE THOUGHT PROCESS I KNOW.) :P wat a sad thing she had to go through. :(

[Chris38]

Now we are really getting to know her a lot better and the roots behind this are becoming clearer.

[youngwriter222]

Wow, this is sad :(
Poor Aelge, she has been through a lot in past years

[Tina Kline]

Very sad memories.