Nothings The Same

I come home but nothing looks the same,
I couldn't help her so I felt lame,
It started as a feeling when I opened the door,
Then saw her laying on the floor,
Her hair was red I thought it to be a wig,
The puddle of blood wasn't big,
I bent over to hear her breathe,
The rest I just couldn't believe,
The woman I have Loved for so long,
Wasn't alive and strong,
I sat down right next to her,
Praying for God to show me a cure,
To her I still tried to speak,
Then start to cry and got weak,
I loved her so very much,
Now she was cold to the touch,
Never did I think about how,
Instead I screamed at God " Why Now",
I dailed 911,
That is when I saw the gun,
I then felt total doom,
It's the one from my room,
They say it was suicide,
Something that I have still denied,
The house is empty what am I to do,
My whole world was about you,
Now the same gun to my head,
I'll pull the triger and be dead,
There has only been one love on my mind,
No matter what she's the one I must find,
She is the one that filled my heart,
Even in death I refuse to part!

An Uncle Charlie Original