Who Wins

There seems to me to always be that little strand of hope

at the bottom of my heart, resting

Behind my fed up eyes are the tears I still cry

and  this anger that's been manifesting

For as much as I want there is just as much as I need

but even that never stopped me

I can't hold on yet I can't let go

so you'll just have to drop me

The weight of the blame is so much more than the shame

and we carry this load taking turns

No matter who ignites the flame, the heats always the same

and it burns

I can't win for losing, I'm no good at choosing

the things that are best and it shows

If I had my way, we would all be okay

but lets face it, that's not how this goes

I love you now like I loved you then

only this time I'm loving me more

If you can compete with that you know where I'm at

Please feel free to even the score

Reviews

[Dana Alsamsam]

"I can't hold on yet I can't let go
so you'll just have to drop me"

that line is so poignant. the emotion there is most definitely felt. i really like how this piece evolves from a severe pain to the realization that you are the only person who can save yourself. loving yourself is the first step and you will only accept this person back if they learn to love you that much or more. great write!

[David Scott]

(smiling)
Nobody win this game do they?
"I love you now like I loved you then only this time I'm loveing me more..." I think this is the key to all relationships. We do need to love ourselves completely! Maybe not a more or less thing as an all or nothing thing... If one does not love themselves fully then the "blame" they have for their own soul will reflect into their relationships.
I like the "little stand of hope at the bottom of my heart".
The idea of this whole thing being dead weight in the line, "I can't hold on yet I can't let go so you'll just have to drop me...", shows me how stuck the heart feels.
The concept was perfect satire and the flow of the read and the rhyme was very enjoyable. I loved this read!

[Mehak Mushtaq]

This is so amazing. Relationships usually start off so good and end up so bad. But, what you experience in between this time teaches you a thousand things but again, we're the best teachers and the worst learners. Nice poem.

[Coyote Poetry]

" I love you now like I loved you then
only this time I'm loving me more"
No winners in love. Just people trying to hold on and do their best. I like your thoughts and how you ended the poem. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote