Surrounded and Drowning.

Surrounded and Drowning.

Days turn to weeks, weeks into months. 

I am supposed to be fine, at least that is what I try to convince myself of being. 

I am numb and also in immense pain, this feeling is indescribable but I must try.

The feeling of being a prisoner in my own body is something I want to escape,

Things I want to do, places I want to see, seem nothing short of a pipe dream now.

This pain is surrounding me like a plague like I am drowning in my own misery.

But I must stand tall, I must fight my own mind, for it is then I shall be truly free.

Maybe one day then when I wake up I won't feel like a facade of a human, 

maybe I will then feel as free as humanly possible.

Author's Note

feel free to leave any criticism. here to learn and better myself.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Yes, keep fighting, never stop fighting.
I am reminded of a line in an Anne Sexton poem when she says something about "death escaping its bad prison"---
makes sense....and lots of people have to fight that...I had to once....came very close. I get this...
j.

[uma]

we all must keep fighting.

[Relic]

It would be hard to critisize anyone in your situation. You're able to write about your experience and get it down on paper in a way that makes me want to cry. You're a brave soul, I commend you and wish you luck in the future.

[uma]

thank you so much, I am in a much better place in life now or at least I am trying to be. I appreciate your kind words.

[Relic]

I'm very glad to hear that. :)))))

[Raschel]

This poem feels very inspiring. You described this feeling so well.
All in all, this poem makes me want to grab that freedom and humanity, which you illustrate beautifully.

[uma]

thank you so much i appreciate it.