Life

I don't understand this life thing
Part of me wants to forward to see the ending
As I can't seem to find things that bring me joy
So then how do I live life and enjoy
When you're just waiting for the fat lady to sing

The truth is I'm desperate need of help
But life doesn't stop when you miss a step
I keep falling and stumbling, running while I should walk
Want to open up, but come from a place where men don't talk
I'm drained, all I want to do is stay asleep

So I'm stuck trying to keep up with life's demand
Be strong, all with a fragile state of mind
I'm watching myself slowly lose everything, myself with it
Secretly hoping God can just end it
Before I completely lose my mind