experience

A Story by sibonise

personal experience

It's don't matter how much you could spend during week or day, not even money can buy you love without it you incomplete everything else in your life it begins not make sense when you've made too many attempts
You start to feel like you are not needed or deserving at most case you stay away from people cause you've become a victim of rejection it begins with small things like feeling like somebody's shadow you lose your sleep at night cause your mind is loaded with so many questions you only realize it later that you don't suffer from loveless life but loneliness is involved
With all those questions like what why nobody notices my depression comes in with a package of bad dreams some are like you are trapped in the darkroom so many desks and window some creature standing at the door every time trying to escape it released a strong wind that pushes you inside this house you so fear being in
Some days I would have dreams like I am falling too deep right in a long while but never reach the ground have you ever feel like before like nothing really matter cause of the disappointment you've faced in your life you don't know the difference who is helping you just putting everybody under disappointment
If you ever feel like it's selfish it's not it's just your heart trying to protect itself unconsciously when you've been hurt in your life you get to use it but your heart try by all means to protect itself but in some way that seems selfish by others only because they don't understand what you've been in your life
It reaches a point whereby you lose your self-esteem undermining your uniqueness these things are not only coursed by a lake of love but by society too how they expect you to fit in I know these words to some people who never suffer from these things to them it will be a piece of junk