R.I.P (Dedicated to my Aunt Connie)

Months go by
I'm still me, the same guy
I still have so many questions on my mind
Why am I here?
Why did you go away?
Why is life so hard to maintain? 

Not a day goes by
That you aren't on my mind
I still can't find a reason
why you had to leave.

I thought in time
I'd come to believe
That it was meant to be
But I just can't see
That you were " meant" to leave

I thought about it everyday
And I swore to myself that I'd make God pay.

I was broken the day I heard of your passing
My heart fell, and my lungs stopped
It felt as if I went with you.

So many days have past since then
But not one day goes by, that I don't cry
I miss you so much, and it hurts inside
I wish I was there
I wish I said goodbye.

I cried at night, that night
All night.

I was so mad for so long
I felt your passing was just wrong.
It wasn't your time..

Then a day came when I wasn't so mad
The day went by and it wasn't that bad.

I let go of my anger, and I fell to the floor
I couldn't hold my feelings in any more

My anger melted away 
Sorrow was gone

Then I could see
You didn't leave.

You're in my heart,
and the heart of all of us.

We think of you everyday
So even in your passing
You'll never be far away.