So Close

I'm tired...

You act almost like nothing happened last week

and part of me is relieved that our friendship seems fine

but a deeper part of me struggles not to let tears leak

because I still simply wish that you would be mine. 

Don't think I haven't noticed that you are more careful now

you are more cautious with your actions, what you do and say

when you think I'm not looking I see the crease of your brow

you don't want to hurt me anymore and this is your way. 

And all of this is fine as long as you don't go away

I did not mean to cause you stress or pain

I did not want things to end up this way

I just needed to share what was plaguing my brain. 

Thank you for remaining my friend

I know that I've complicated things a bit

I just need some more time to mend

to see if my feelings will ever quit. 

But I fear they will may be here to stay

and then what will become of us

will you decide then to go away

or will we simply sit and discuss?

I foolishly hold on to some slim hope

that you will someday like me back

even though I know it's a slippery slope

I don't know how to cut it slack. 

I guess I can't know what lies ahead

so I will be grateful for this time with you

however for now I must go to bed 

and hope no new feelings break through. 

Author's Note

Please inform me of any errors.