Just Scream Already!

I walk in,

There are laughs and stairs...

in the beginning.

I could handle it...

But now... now, a single touch,

a single spoken work...

and the thing is...

nowadays...

it doesent matter who it is...

which is what i dont understand...

they are trying to be kind,

and what do i do?

i get edgy...

emotional...

some say unapproachable...

Why?

Because im trying so hard not to suddenly burst into tears,,,

or i get moody with people acting stupid...

then i bust out into a sudden uproar of burden and pain...

the laughs as i become tired and slowly doze off in the middle of lecture...

the inability to talk right... the judgmental stairs....

i just want to stand up and shout,

only if you lived what i go through on a daily basis,

if you knew what total lack of sleep is like...

always afraid that when you come home...

your life will change forever...

that you come home,

and that only person that you have left..

is just gone

I wanna scream!!

Just scream, Stop!!!

Leave me alone!!

I cant take anymore!!!

I just want to scream already!

Cry already...

Give myself up into a pit of tears...

I'm so sick of people thinking "I'm just over reacting",

my response that is trapped in this horrid place called my mind,

Why don't you try living day to day,

taking car of your family member!

Not being able to have a life

because your only reason to be alive,

is to be every ones security!

Not being able to sleep at night.

Because your either helping them,

working,

scared for them,

or have reached the point where,

you are just to tired to sleep,

your so busy you forget to eat!

How the hell do expect someone to function?!?

How can one simply create a thought,

talk it out, properly,

then move on to the next....

the thing is....

I don't have a damn clue!!!

Reviews

[Bohrium Guy]

I really like your style and you have a nice visual imagery in your writing. I can relate to your expression here, so many times I have felt this very same way but you clearly have captured the right wording and phrases. Excellent write!

~Rob~

[Sarah]

thank you for your kind words. this is a feeling i feel all too much and this is just the first time i have been able to express them. sadly writing this has not helped me put into a calming state as you may have read in my other poems. i am pleased to hear that my style in which i write brings pleasure to your imagination. i hope that i can continue bringing forth such pleasure.
-sarah-

[Bohrium Guy]

I look forward to reading more of your works...

~Rob~

[Sarah]

thank you.
-sarah-

[Bohrium Guy]

Your welcome! :)