If He Only Knew

if he only knew how much i die inside,

everytime i say something wrong,

if he only knew that he could do so much better,

could have someone way better than, well me.

if he only knew,

that i not worthy of his love,

if he only knew,

if he only knew,

that loving me is like loving a cactus,

you get hurt,

if he only knew,

that the fears i face everyday,

is not of those who wronged me,

if he only knew,

that.....

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 He doesnt know,

im a monster,

he doesnt know,

im scared to be a mom,

he doesnt know,

that the only thing keeping me alive, is him,

he doesnt know,

that im almost at my breaking point,

he doesnt know,

that there are nights that i stay up crying,

he doesnt know,

that im no good,

he doesnt know,

is that im scared to become not me,

what he doesnt know,

is...

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Does he know

 i love him?

does he know

 ill do anything for him?

does he know 

that no matter what happens

ill always be with him?

does he know,

that every tim he is away

my heart cries in pain?

does he know,

that every time ikiss him

its like the first kiss over and over?

does he know,

that i long for every text,

every day that he brushes up against me?

does he know,

that his little clingy ways,

i find totally adorable?

does he know?

if only.... 

if only....

Reviews

[Inject Positivity]

Nice and unique style......Loved its thought.......Well done......

[Bohrium Guy]

How deep this runs. I love affair that seems to be distant and kept hidden. I trial of self worth and a feeling you must hide inside. Very effective poem.

~Rob~