Faith Like a Child

Now a days people depend on faith,

A faith in God,

A faith in other men,

Looking back into the depths of my pain,

At the struggle to survive,

Looking at every thing, 

That if not looked at right, could be mistaken,

A poison,

A jagged dagger, 

That tears rips and shreds,

The pain drops like an ax to flesh,

The thought that pierces the veil of my thoughts,

God, how does this happen to me repeatedly?

If you claim me as your child,

then why am i here weeping,

Bruised and broken.

Why haven't you saved me?

I have lost this "faith"

people often say "faith like child"

"God will protect you"

I can no longer posses such a thought,

The chains that bind my wrists, 

Every time, without fail i always find more pain.

I become a wounded dog,

Just trying to please my master,

pleading for my life,

I beg God to just please let me be free,

God protect me from my abusers,

Save me from myself,

That i can not hold myself together much longer,

God oh God why?

Why must i suffer?

why must i be forced to endure the pain?

I can not get these answers,

For I have tried,

to no point to avail my pleading questions,

My questions remain unanswered.

My biggest question is,

What is wrong with me?

Why don't you love me?

The only acknowledge i receive,

refusal,

The pain courses through my body,

I'm tired of trying,

For every attempt i try,

I fail,

I can no longer have 

"faith like a child"