No Longer Remidies

the remedies i can no longer find,

acceptance from you is impossible,

all i want is to be your little angel,

but why do I waste my time,

trying to please you is like giving comfort to a brick wall,

I should Know it's impossible,

I try any way,

all I want is your approval,

But now I'm being pushed away,

Ha, but I'm stupid enough to run for you,

I know now that all hope is lost,

but it's not hope that no longer drives me,

What drives me is,

The longing to be loved,

To be accepted into your arms,

I must be dreaming if I think I have a chance,

This is why I go to others,

Why cant I stop trying to please you,

I know all I'll get is pain,

Why do I even try,

I'm no use to you,

Nor am I a use to anyone in life,

So why do I even try?