The Mask I Wear

A poem about how your emotions can change so fast, over what seems like a little thing.

 I was so excited

to dance

and laugh

and talk

 

I find you

as a smile brightens your face

You hug me

and we briefly talk

 

I secretly watch you

your actions

and your movement

as I feel a pull

to be with you

 

I don't want this

to be awkward

so i'll just keep quiet

it will happen soon enough

 

I tell them no

don't force it

I want him to come to me

 

I decide I want to see you,

you're not dancing

so we look elsewhere

 

You are surrounded by friends

I wanted to talk

maybe even get a picture

 

We walk away

because I don't want to interrupt

But then I realize

that I really want to dance

with you

 

My friends go to find you

just so I can be next to you

I stand nervous

hoping I made the right choice

 

It turns out

you left,

no picture

no hug

no goodbye

nothing

 

My heart clenches

as my eyes water

I feign indifference

just so my friends

don't see how much this hurts

 

I hold back the tears

I can't lose it here

so I put on a mask

and I try to smile

 

The mask that hides

how I really feel

 

I lost my chance

all because I couldn't decide

What if we danced?

We could be together

 

What if the time

won't be right

ever again

 

I was too scared

but now I know

I must follow my heart

 

I will follow the path

wherever it goes

just to be with you

 

Some say I blew it

but I have to disagree

for now I know

what road

will lead you

right to me

 

Author's Note

Comments welcome!

Reviews

[LlamaLord]

Really painted a image in my mind.
"My heart clenches

as my eyes water

I feign indifference

just so my friends

don't see how much this hurts"
Love those lines. You are really trying to hide how you feel for him, and a lot of people just don't have respect for love. Of a breaking heart. Something original, that they wish they had. Great piece. Thanks for another wonderfully written piece!
Austin D

[Gary The Hat]

I can totally relate to this at this moment in time, especially the don't force it, let them come to you bit.

[Daniel]

Great poem! I could feel your heartache as I read more and more.
Keep up the good job!

[Laoidhigh Uilleag]

Aw... I hope you meet the match you're wanting in the future!
Very good flow, i agree that it looks great and was probably better than the first time.
It's hard on how we are forced to make split decisions on these things and it's scary, but if u face this again i am sure you know what to do the next time!
Keep your friends close to you in your time of need and I'm sure you'll solve this dilema.
See you later!

I can automatically see the change in the poem. You've edited it very well, in my opinion! Good job!

I suggest making the lines longer. The fragments don't seem to work with this type of poem. I love the title, though, and what you're trying to say.