twisting my ring around

a nervous habit, an anxious tick, you knew how to spot it, now you know how to cause it

just in case you were wondering, i miss you today

after shock and hurt subside that’s what is left of me

to think of times i shared with you

and all i thought you shared with me

while memories taint with pools of hurt i still miss them anyway

your face, i see in passing, and wish you would look at me

and smile with your eyes piecing still, and seeing through to me

but your glance is turned away, at her i now assume

and i again miss your voice always making me swoon 

the way your hands would graze my skin, light and distractedly 

you holding me close in the crisp, cold air

and all you were to me

after tears of pain now leave

and the hurt of fate sets in

loneliness and missing you is the sea i’m drowning in

the apathy i once presumed to feel regarding you

was but a veil protecting me from all my thoughts of you

the suspension of disbelief is gone

and now i clearly see

i once again long for you, sitting beside me

the rough warm hands which would wrap mine in a tight embrace

your nose pressed up against mine as your hands held my face

my fingers absently learning every inch of your embrace

tracing along the scars you bear hoping yet to heal 

feeling everything you threw away when you decided not to feel

my fingers dance now in the cold hoping to recall you

remembering every single touch and the warmth i felt with you

left now alone and in the cold

i shake down to my bones

those bones that felt that you were different 

who left me now alone

and in the cold i shiver yet, not still at the wind

but rather the frigid truth set in

that i’m alone again

just in case you wonder still

although i know that you are not

but just in case you wondering, i miss you every day