for I am just me

it fails not because of circumstance but because i am not enough

It's funny watching this fall apart again
This time I blamed her last time I blamed distance
But now as I looked through tear stained eyes I see
The reason you don't want me is because of me
You do not choose me because no one does
I guess I'm not meant to be wanted by someone
They say if a writer falls for you
you will never die
But with every love the writer dies each time
computer keys and a pen may seem comforting
but I still feel the absence of your arms around me
the phantom feeling of your fingers in mine
missing togetherness missing us intertwined
but yet here i am after all I’m still me
and you could not want this indefinitely
now i am stuck waiting,
by the car, by the phone, by the door
left unrequited and alone
i have been here before
not in a way that’s happen, not as though its fine
i have been here wanting something that isn’t mine
i have been rejected and i have been ignored
no one really wants me
yes, I’ve been here before
the others never wanted me, why would it be different with you
although i felt it quake within my bones
and swore the feel was true
how naive of me to believe in you
when you said you wanted me
I’ve heard that line in times before
afterwards they always leave
shame on me for hoping
and dreaming once again
I’m letting my heart now get broken
as i remember that people pretend
pretend to truly care for you when you truly know they can’t
because you are not someone to be cared for
I’ve always known but hid from truth
hoping it was proved wrong by you
but this time when you walk away
after I’ve done everything to win you
don’t worry ill apologize
because i would walk away from me too