Just sleep

Night falls

But my thoughts rise

Making sleep so foreign...

Just a blessing to close my eyes

And quiet my thoughts

What I would give 

To just have the ability

To shut my head off

And drift off

Into a false world

A safe world

Where even if I'm plagued with night mares,

I still possess the ability to escape them

With the opening of my eyes

The pinch back to reality

But my reality

Right now

Is the constant racing of panic

Envy

Fear

What will I become

What will to tomorrow bring

And how will I handle it all

Will I ever handle it all?

Will I even be able to f*****g sleep?

An act so simple

Mindless

That I desperately need

Just let me drift off

Into that better world

Please, please, please

Because being awake

The constant stress

It's wearing me down

Eroding a sole that's already weathered

Rusted, tattered, and worn

I'm so worn down

Just please, God, help me to lay down

And go into that land of dreams

The land that I haven't seen in nights

I'm going crazy

I am crazy

And so tired

Of being constantly wired

I dread the night

I despise the night

When everyone else vanishes

Leaving me with my demons

If only the night fall could bring me

Some peace