Thanks mom

F**k your damn college

F**k your damn grades

I don't know where I'm going

As the inhibition fades

I know that I've fucked up

With my obscurity and pills

And I know I'm still fucked up

Because being wreckless kills

But I can't hold it together

So I'm sorry that I failed  you

I can't even find the peices

That you hoped would get me through

That you hoped would somehow construct

The daughter you always wanted

But I'm just an emabaressment now

Making all of your dreams haunted

I know that you've disowned me

But I'd rather be a stray

Than conform to your insanity

Conform to your dismay

Because to you Ill always be a w***e

And you'll always hate my face

You hate all my clothing

To you, I'm some disgrace

You hate that I swear in every sentence

That I dropped out of medical school

That I'd rather write and feel

Than follow some stupid rule

And guess what, I get trashed...

More often than I should

I get high because to escape myself

Because I know that I'm no good

And ofcourse you hate my scars

The way I sliced up my skin

But you never really cared to know

The demons you fostered within

Yes, my body's gone to hell

Because I eat occasionally

Then I shove my hand down my throat

So that I will not have to see

The weight that piles on

No matter how hard I try

The tears that just evaporate

No matter how hard I cry

But that's not important, now is it?

It's just another thing gone wrong

So I'll just sweep it under the rug

And we can all move along

Along to the other things...

How I know you hate my hair

I'm doing nothing with myself

And I really donnot care

Because when I care I need perfection

And then I crumble more

When you've already crushed me enough

Because I could have always been more

Sorry I'm not your doll now

Sorry I'm not yours to display

Sorry I'm not yours to capture

Sorry I've gone the wrong way

Well, I'm really not sorry

Because I've grown to hate you as well

And even though I'm not much better...

Atleast I'm free from your hell