Ostracized

How I feel right now.

I feel

Stupid.

Foolish.

Used.

Confused.

Wondering.

Why?

I trusted.

They lied.

Dimming the lights so gradually.

I didn't even realize.

Deluded.

You gave me.

Lies.

Illusion of freedom.

Of Liberty.

Lies.

You were trapping me.

Forced.

Made to be happy.

Or else.

Guilt.

It's my fault.

Holding me down.

I'm falling.

Till I cannot fall.

Dying.

Painfully alive.

You say you left me in the open.

But the walls were too far.

Now you are blocking it off.

Dimming the lights.

Forgotten.

 the dark.

Realizing my own error.

Speechless at my defeat.

At my vulnerability.

Fooled.

By them.

Too close

I held them.

Close enough to be tied down.

Feeling so f*****g stupid.

To have believed.

Their words.

Woven of the same thing

that weaves dreams.

Tears 

Of nothingness.

Reflecting my past.

The walls.

Pressing down.

Breathing. Fast.

Gasping.

Choking.

Screaming.

Without any sound.

Crumbling.

Blinded.

Blind.

Gasping.

Falling.

Breathing.

No.

Dying.

Crumbling.

Ending.

Regrets.

Anger.

Sorrow.

Tears.

Anger.

Death is calling.

I don't want to hear.

I want to scream.

Stop.

Breathing.

Ostracized.

Alone.

Gone.

Dead.

Finally.

It is done.

Reviews

[Madelin]

that was really good. i wanted to cry for you your emotion reach me. that is what poetry is all about.. really good

[Sarah Hawkinson]

Wow how profound that was. So simple but really depicts an emotion. A terrible emotion at that, but you have a skill with the way you set up words to really let the reader know how you feel. Excellent.