A note to self

Where to start when it's already begun

What to do when it's already done

Pulled out from under your feet

Pummeled by emotion you don't know how to meet

Jostled awake, this is the new you

I've been here all along, just let me though

No more hiding, no more fear

Let things fall where they fall

Stop holding back and the need to control

You're allowed to fail among near and dear

Trust is not an action you can take

Nor a one-sided thing

Trust is a state of being

Only two caring people can together bring

So stop thinking, start to feel

Get out of your head, embrace what's real

It will be scary, it will be hard

It's not a fight, so drop your guard

It'll all be worth it, though there will be scars

Forgive yourself, for all have flaws

It's not a game, it's not a fight

You cannot win, only attempt what's right

What's right in the moment don't always stand up to time

You only know what you know now because you did it, and that's fine

Self compassion is not done with thoughts

Experience is not imagination

Ifs and buts and oughts

Cannot replace honest conversation

Please put that intellect aside from time to time

Start to do and dare to feel

Walls once thought solid, in them doors outline

Take a leap of faith and open one

Things not a million thoughts would bring

Will therethrough reveal

Trust is a state of being

Only two caring people together can bring

Be open, be honest, give care to the past you

Open your eyes and heart and trust will come through

Dare to love and lose, and start living

Believe in yourself and others, that together we'll make this thing we call life, a wonderful thing