The darkness beneath

Ramblings of a crazy person

Thoughts on paper to better see

A dark and twisted excursion

To the center of my inner self

Deep cracks in my mental health

The hidden web of the true me 

Didn't care what people thought

I had fooled myself to believing

Yet deep down all I sought

Was the care of another human being

Someone who wouldn't judge

Even after I would share

Someone whom I could trust

My dark deeds, fears and lust

One person I've found

With whom I've gone deep down

But a lot deeper it goes

My darkest demons and foes

How would I dare

To take her there

When I myself is at war

A leap of faith

Hope of saving grace

Nothing I'd want more

A broken soul

On the edge

One slip to fall

To his death

Futile attempts to quiet his mind

Bottle by bottle

Dips in the cold

Momentary relief, only to find

Need more and more

For less and less

Dreams to pause, rewind

Go back, to change

End up, the same

Shunting the solution, be kind

To yourself

Be kind

Alone he wanders

In the dark, snowy night

Trying to find peace

But his emotions want a fight

And the snow shows, walking here and there

Step by step, tear by tear

But no-one knows, doesn't dare to share

Time after time, year after year

Break the cycle

Naive recital

Be free at last

Explore within

Meditate, begin

Let go of the past

Open mind, open heart

Line by line, healing art

Appreciate nature, take it all in

Perceive it fully, far out and within

Look into space

Let space look back

Resentment, disgrace

Forgive what you lack

Accept your broken pieces

They've made you who you are

Wear them on your sleeve

Be proud you've made it this far