Vulnerable

I laid there thinking of what I was.

How I came to be.

Why me?

I do not bare my soul to many.

I do not cry without fear of judgement.

Why me?

I created the perfect illusion.

There is no room for me to be vulnerable.

I need this.

I need you.

I need me.

Why me?

Why must my body betray me.

I do not want to lose myself.

I do not want to lose you.

I do not want to lose this.

I am vulnerable throughout the day.

When nights seem to stalk me in return.

My body needs you.

My body needs my love.

My body needs this.

I do not dare face the mirror

I do not dare face my vulnerabilities.

I do not dare face you.

Author's Note

I wrote this as a way of facing my own self and my reproductive problems I am currently facing.

Reviews

[Jonathan J Sisson]

A very brave poem. I love the use of repetition to drive home the emotions. Thank you for sharing.

[TrishArias]

Thank you for taking the time to read !

[Zugzwang]

Hey Trish, this is a brave piece and you have commanded my respect. I concur with Elizabeth. The repetition is compelling, to me it brings about the impression of rocking in a state of anguish, and hammers home the emotional impact of the deep deep pain being expressed. Wow.

[TrishArias]

Thank you so much!!! I really appreciate your comments!!!

[Zugzwang]

You got some guts. Respect.

[Elizabeth]

I like the repetition, it plays out like a second hand of a clock. Bare bones, honest and gut wrenching. Well done.