Why am i like this

junethird2018. a rap and a prayer.

I've been feeling like i'm not human as of late.

Don't talk to anybody used to have a lot to say.

And if i'm being honest i've forgotten how to pray.

I don't feel a thing and i'm about to graduate.

Am i numb to the spirit am i dumb in my faith?

Is my life just a facade a fake image i portray?

Am i recognized by God didn't he design my face?

'Cause i don't feel it God despite knowledge of Your grace.

Every time i hear Your words i've been quick to fall asleep.

Every time i go to church all i wanna do is leave.

Every time i try to turn i turn on the incognito see

But how can i be doing that when i choose to believe

In Your promises. the opposite of what grabs my attention.

There's problems in these office walls that i choose not to mention.

My eyes demand to be pleased like i need it to survive.

God i hope you understand that i don't want this life.

I could fill a backpack with excuses not to go.

I can hear the laugh track 'cause my life is just for show.

You might feel differently about my purpose yea i know

But i'm my biggest enemy and i can't stand him anymore.

I always put off trying to change because i know i won't.

Like maybe when i'm hydrated i'll begin to grow.

For now i might be ill-fated to ease my head with every vice.

Maybe that's why my cross faded no concern has crossed my mind.

Author's Note

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