I Don't Know

I don't know

Its been too long since I ever have

Past dictating my decisions now

Causing me to hesitate with the slightest of things

I don't know

Acquaintances would be on me left and right

Attacking almost everything they see

Going after everything that makes me feel good

I don't know

I feel like now I can't act like myself

Really I haven't acted like myself in so long

I'd be surprised to see who I really am

I don't know

I really think that its time to move on

Go out in the world and meet new people

Detach myself from everything I'm attached to now

I don't know

It sounds easy to do it

But is it really easy making friends?

I don't want to be left alone with myself

I really don't know

I think its time to find something new

But it's so hard to let go of the past and move forward

And I'm afraid people won't come with me along the way

I'm stuck in my head, in this pit of my thoughts

Guys I'm telling you, I really don't know what I want to do today.

Author's Note

Let me know what I can improve, thanks!

Reviews

[dan]

Ricky, Back a million years ago when I was 16 I thought I knew it all, but if I would have been honest with myself my entire existence would have screamed, "I don't f*****g KNOW!" As Mark Twain wrote, "When I left home at 18 I thought my parents were both idiots; when I returned home at 22 I was so surprised at how much THEY had learned in four years." And I'm not saying that when your get older you'll know it all, you will simply know where to go to look for it. And that can make all the difference. take care...dan

[Saddam]

I like it.
Every time when I found puzzled situation I said "I don't know"
Relative for everyone.

[nazia]

Not knowing is actually a part of everyone's day.. I like the way you described it just add a little bit of rhyme and break it into stanzas.. rest all good, tc :)

[Madhu]

It's something we all go through and you've put it together beautifully in the last few lines. Although, I feel the first few lines seemed slightly confusing to me. But I loved these lines -
"I think its time to find something new
But its so hard to let go of the past and move forward
And I'm afraid people won't come with me along the way
I'm stuck in my head, in this pit of my thoughts
Guys I'm telling you, I really don't know what I want to do today"
Thank you for sharing this poetry :)

[andrew mitchell]

life a question of balance. and risk taking

[Olivia]

I really liked this piece. it was relatable and honest. Also has a certain flow

[jacob erin-cilberto]

RiverRei has some good suggestions...remember "it's" is for it is...

sometimes we need friends and affirmation so badly, but whom can we trust----who are the friends who will be supportive and not make us feel worse than we already do---

we can feel totally alone in the most crowded room.

[RiverRei]

I like it. I think you should add to the second line though. It's been so long since you ever have, what? Also, I think you should take off the "with myself" in line 20. It would flow better if you took out "along the way" in line 24. Also please take out "today" off of the last line; line 26. Other then that I like it a lot. You're slowly getting better at free-verse/free-form. :)

[KWP]

Ahhhh I think we all think this at some point right ?

Me personally I love getting out of my comfort zone - that's where I learn most :)

personally I could speak in pages of the subject matter which you have written - It is a passage we all take to some extent through life :)

You have expressed thought well here and I am certain most people would find it easily relatable - well done XX

[wordman]

sometimes it`s hard to come out of that comfort zone
and sometimes we get tired of the same things