I Don't Know

I don't know

Its been too long since I ever have

Past dictating my decisions now

Causing me to hesitate with the slightest of things

I don't know

Acquaintances would be on me left and right

Attacking almost everything they see

Going after everything that makes me feel good

I don't know

I feel like now I can't act like myself

Really I haven't acted like myself in so long

I'd be surprised to see who I really am

I don't know

I really think that its time to move on

Go out in the world and meet new people

Detach myself from everything I'm attached to now

I don't know

It sounds easy to do it

But is it really easy making friends?

I don't want to be left alone with myself

I really don't know

I think its time to find something new

But it's so hard to let go of the past and move forward

And I'm afraid people won't come with me along the way

I'm stuck in my head, in this pit of my thoughts

Guys I'm telling you, I really don't know what I want to do today.

Author's Note

Let me know what I can improve, thanks!

Reviews

[Teresa]

Great job :)) Really good made me make a connection felt nice to finally make one: )

[Akki]

This is so good..... I really like it.... Keep writing..... keep it up....Thanks for sharing...
: )

[Vanesa Markovic]

I don't know who said that it was easy to make friends, but I do know they were a damn liar, haha.
You're still very young and the opportunities should be fruitful!
Sadly, it seems to get a little harder as we age, I suspect it has something to do with the inflated
cynicism, haha. Either way, sometimes it just helps to get the anxiety out with words.
A good literary vent, so to speak!
Thanks for sharing :)
-VM

[Lavender Soya]

Doubts that are very well penned. Rhyme schemes sometimes appear too main stream and your style seems to give justice to it. Kudos! Thank you for sharing.

[Coyote Poetry]

The questions of life are many. Life is a roller coaster ride. I like the flow of thoughts and the open ending. Life is a new journey everyday. Thank you for the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Terrence Chang]

Great poem Ricky. Keep posting

[R Smith]

Don't be afraid to take a leap into the unknown, I say this because i was that way and better choices instead of none are the way to go, balance caution with considered moves ahead :)

[Avinash]

Dilemma of everyday can often bog you down to dysfunction. However the best way to deal such situation is to go and explore yourself.

[Ena Lona Kendra]

Not knowing something can give you an advantage...Like when you don't get attached to a human or pet and they die...or you loose them. you wont be sad or empty

[Valentine]

Maybe you need a good nights sleep and when you wake up, make sure you get up on the right side of the bed instead of the wrong side, Valentine