Recrate the selfhate

A Poem by The poetic child

I find it funny

how I can walk about

with a smile plastered

on acting like nothing is wrong

that my head isn't screaming

a new future im dreaming

all I wanna do is wipe away my past

and throw down my mask

im tired of standing at the edge

wanting to jump of my ledge

feeling anxious feeling depressed

and loosing my masked press

my feelings are slipping through

and there is nothing I can do

without you to help me handle all theses dealings'

im tired of being alone

with no real hope

always high on dope

never giving a f**k

I want to matter

not have my heart shatter

again and again

feeling this much pain should be a sin!

now im in in a war

my mind is starting to bore

letting go

letting the demons win

and im not gonna be able to deal

with all the self hate

not gonna recreate

only gonna dissipate

and never be here to feel

cause none of this s**t is f*****g real

I cant help it anymore

when all they do is call me the w***e

so I turned it around

and watched em drown

when they heard my sound

they looked in the mirror

and saw what they saying to me

is who I aim to be

but as I showed them the light

they denied it

and I tried it

but they had to fight it

so myself I righted it

because I cant take away the scars

they are apart of me

who I am

so don't call me crying

saying you wish you could take it all back

when your words were another form of attack as you stab that knife in my back

cause ive dealt with a lot

and soon it wanted me to cry die and rot

but look at me now?

im still here with nothing to fear

so get off my a*s dear

I said it I told you

im done

so just give it face it ive won

© 2014 The poetic child

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Glen Yumang Manese

Helluva rant and venting in the lines...
its speaks much and the volume is maxed out...
I would just edit this a bit more including the title...
and this is a solid work...
I'm glad I'm not on the receiving end of this one...
its better to let out and flow...
then keep it all inside and consume you...