Her

I can't even say her name without feeling useless.

I can see why
I can see why you choose her over me
It's pretty clear
She's everything I'm not
Beautiful, talented, smart
You say I am, but I know
Not as much as her

In your eyes, she's perfect
I have my flaws
I'm no where near as great
I get it
Just say it, don't deny

You're best friends
So are we...
Right?
That's what you say
Yet she's the one you call every night
She's the one you run to for advice
Am I really that bad?
Do I not help you?

I ask if you like her
Not like, "like"
You change the subject before I can even finish asking
What does that tell me?
If you do, just say it
I'm sure she'll be happy
I won't

But really,
Do you care how I feel?
It seemed like you did
Using your tricks of sweetness to fool me
It just makes my heart bleed more
Don't mess with my head

I wish that one day, you'll see just how much you mean to me
And you're so called
"best friend"
will know, too

I've told her myself
She says she wants us to be together
But she and I both know it wouldn't last
Because you like her
Not me
And so far, nothing I do can change it
I'll live
I won't like it
But I'll find someone better
Someone who can look me in the eye and say
"I love you".