Not a Risk to Myself, ApparentlyA Poem by Jodie
it echoes when i breathe
and when you say that i'm pretty. words as hollow as i feel on the nights you're not here to hold me. i like brown eyes and hands that aren't always gentle and words acting as curtains. sometimes a squeeze can be a blanket. sometimes a needle goes in and it feels like when you said my name. sometimes sex is fourth dimensional and i'm not sure if i'm really there. sometimes there are too many emotions and sometimes none at all, right now none at all, and always always feel like i'm drowning. and always always fixed while you're here. sometimes you're not here and i steady shaking hands by scratching skin raw and i dry tears by slamming my head into the headboard and when you text i reply too quickly and send you pictures that i think will make you smile, to make up for the fact that i can't. you hold my hand when we cross the road, and you always look both ways. sometimes i cross without caring or looking and i'm disappointed when the rope snaps. my eyelids are puffy and homesick i'm not sure whether i just need a hug or maybe two red pills to take away the blues. it echoes when i breathe. © 2018 Jodie |
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Added on April 6, 2018 Last Updated on April 6, 2018 |