Anthony

My current problem.

You hurt me.

Stabbed me right in the heart.

 

Unintentionally.

 

We were never "together".

But I wanted to be.

No, I still want to be.

Even now I can't stop thinking about you.

 

My obsession.

 

Never leaving my thoughts.

I don't think you realize what you do.

 

Insane.

 

That's what you make me.

 

It's not your fault I never told you.

You were just having fun.

What's wrong with that.

I was enjoying the ride too.

 

 

The fact that you don't like me,

doesn't hurt as much as the fact,

that you pretended to like me.

You were fooling around.

It's my fault I didn't catch on.

Too cought up in the moment.

I can only blame myself.

You are the innocent.

 

Self pity?

 

I refuse.

 

I can't make you like me.

What would that make me?

 

Desperate.

 

Am I?

 

No.

 

In love.

 

I'm trying to understand.

I hate you but at the same time I love you.

But I shouldn't hate you.

I'm the one who had it all wrong.

 

Whose to blame?

 

No one.

 

That's life.

 

You still talk to me,

everyday like nothing happened.

I am thankful.

I don't know what I would do,

if I ever lost you.

Well, as a friend at least.
But right now,

thats good enough for me.

Author's Note

This is about the same boy I wrote about in another poem Love or Lust? and also in my unfinished story What' Going to Happen Next?

Reviews

[E.H. Monroe]

Irionically enough when you spatter some notes, it has the makings of something that will grow into a hulk.
My thoughts:
There is some work that needs to be done. What sets this apart from other teenage angsty "I am boys friend because he blah blah bippity"
You have the line he is my NEW obsession. I found this interesting because it seems like he has clearly been an obsession. Maybe play with a bit of the insanity?

Spitballin like a champ

[steph]

This is so superb!!!! I love the emotion, the inner turmoil, and the desire to attain and unattainable love... unrequited love always makes me tear up...

[Tony]

This poet has a great flair for communication, and the rhythm and style are good.
But I gotta tell ya, Jane.
In this world, if you are writing about things that bother you personally, you are going to have to experience some tragedy to hold my interest.

What I am saying is,
You have the talent and skill to write stuff that will make people laugh, cry, withdraw in anger and/or disgust.
But Anthony, well, he's probably a lefthanded gemini with an inclination to causing people distress, completely unintended.

Thanks for sharing, and WriteOn!

[DeViouS]

Good poem. I Like the way you have used the space and presented the two sides of the relationship. Shows understanding and no blame - that's good (`enough for me').

[PrincessZeldaWannabe]

Man, I can't believe he did that to you! That's too mean, but in some ways I am dealing with the same thing, except it's about a friend with no feelings between us. Good job!

[iamcarolfierce]

"I'm trying to understand.
I hate you but at the same time I love you.
But I shouldn't hate you.
I'm the one who had it all wrong. "

Made me remember someone from my past. Someone who I thought felt the same for me. I liked him , loved him yet hated him for letting me fall for him. I didn't know he didn't have any attention of catching me though. :(

I could connect to this piece. I love this, really. :)

[Sarusai Hiryu]

Same theme - again?
That is weird, albeit in a good way.

[E.H. Monroe]

Hold the f*****g phone..
I think the kid's got it.
Now the focal point is fear. That you have stepped over the line into obsession and gone unhealthy. This is why I hate rewrite. This thing could kill you for how many times you could play with it. So far, It's shaped up like sweeping brushfire.
I wish you would have kept up the other one so people can see the remake.
Its aliivveee ITSS ALLIVVEE