In Between

Lately I have been feeling better and better because of anti-depressants, but the past week I fell a bit. So I'm in this weird state between being okay and not really. Might turn it to a song.

My mental state is in flux
capacity for just
one more day,
one more rise,
one more fall to the rock hard bottom inside.

This rollercoaster is too scary
and I want off,
but of course
that would mean unfastening my seatbelt and jump,
and that is not particularly something I want.

You see I'm scared of heights so this really freaks me out.
The screams from the crowd
are coming from my own mouth
so I just wish that I could flatline now.

But back and forth I swing
like a pendulum
constantly in motion,
and as I start to climb
this next steep incline
I realize that I'm
stuck in limbo between broken
and doing just fine.