Requiem for a love story

A Poem by Bad Wolf~

'In your arms is the place where I belong'
That's what I thought..
But I was wrong,oh so wrong!
(...)my fault.

I stepped in your twisted-minded trap,
But you were only taking advantage of my pure feelings towards you
And cheated on me.
But you didn't even have the guts to tell me the truth..
'Well..f**k you!!'

This is what I think sometimes and what others would have told you,
But after all the time we spent together you should know
That I'm beyond the ordinary and think differently.
For friends I would lay my hands in a flame-
'Yes, I dare playing with fire!'

For you I would even now still walk through,
Because the good times we shared are enough for me to forgive.
I wish I could have foreseen this thing happening to you
And I wish I could once again truly live!

But that's impossible since you've gone away,
Without you nothing is fun anymore and the world has lost its beauty.
I see no reason to stay..
But nevertheless it's my duty-
To carry on.
For my friends, who seem to need me in their life,
So leaving them behind would be like stabbing them with a knife.

I cannot do that
Because I can't hurt anyone but myself..
Oh why can't I forget ?!
You keep creeping in my head..

And it goes on and on, it continues forever,
Thus I doubt I'll ever be able to fully recover.
My feelings for you might fade one day
But the memories of how you made me feel will always stay.
My brain will forget and CTRL-ALT DELETE you...
NEVER!!

Right now I just forgot how to live.
I've got an overdose of you and I can't breathe,
Because for me there's just no more air -
Since my air was you.

Now that you've turned your back on me,
I can no longer be free,
Because there is no air for me.
No fun for me,
No colors in my world,
No more.
It is intolerably sore..

I don't want this black 'n white life anymore!
I'm no longer more than a shell without a soul-
Passing the days ,
Mentally more and more fading away.
Sleepless nights and endless days,
A life that has lost its meaning-
A life without grace.

Me ?
A cracked mask, no longer a face.