BitterSweet

A heart that seems cold and impermeable as steel,
A shattered soul-
Damned for eternity.

Nothing is real.

   (...)

Black,black,black
Those clothes' only color,
It cannot be dark enough.
Since years-
Forgot how to laugh.

A mind which is only filled by the past,
Makes last old memories of him-
I think I forgot how to swim.

So I will sink instead.

    (...)

Falling,falling
The darkness is calling!
Trying to take hold of the light
But it's so exhausting to fight.

Tired,so tired of trying
Pain, piercing through my body and soul-
Can find no hope in this perturbing black hole.

Tired,so tired of failing
So I might just stop fighting-

And surrender instead .

    (...)

If I knew that by giving up I could be with him again,
I would since long...

Be dead.

    (...)

Alas, but he told me that the show must go on
So since I want to make him proud
I will hold my head up high again,
And try affronting back-
Against this darkness.

He is a part of me
And the only reason why I still believe-
That indeed the show must go on ,
No matter how hard or long it may be ...

I will carry on.

(...)

Because he'll live on forever-
Inside of me.